Election season pisses me off. It really really bothers me when people start pestering me about voting etc. People will ask me 50 times if I'm registered to vote. Then they'll start pestering me about who I should be voting for. Then they'll start asking me constantly if I've 'volunteered for the campaign' yet. God damnit. It's almost as annoying as people who pester me about going to church and tell me I'm going to hell. Actually, it's almost the same thing. It really almost makes me want to not vote just to spite these people. Or even UN-register to vote, if that's even possible.
One incident will probably always stick in my mind because it just really really irked me. Walking out of the movie theater after watching Team America: World Police. Some guy starts heckling us and starts getting in our faces about voting for Bush. Or not voting for Bush. I don't know and I don't care. "You voting for Bush, guys? America, Fuck YEAH! Right? RIGHT!?" This kind of thing went on for several minutes, and at one point i think he was all in Zack's face and Zack wasn't even old enough to vote yet and I was getting pissed off and told him to go the fuck away and that he wasn't 18 yet anyway. Of course he didn't believe that and so he got more in our face. I don't remember how this whole thing panned out. I just remember being really really pissed off, and wanting to punch every single person like that in the country. There are way too many of them. I don't know what makes people think that getting in peoples faces and starting violence and destruction is gonna make me sympathetic to their views. It just makes me embarassed if I happen to have the same beliefs that they do.

There's gonna be some changes 'round here.

I'm glad I never had a teacher who tried to teach creationism in class. I'd have no doubt protested and argued and would have most likely offended the teacher and classmates and been kicked out. This kind of thing seriously infuriates me. The fact that approximately 1/8th of highschool biology teachers teach creationism makes me want to strangle somebody.
I remember when a kid who was my best friend from like age 3 until probably age 17 started trying to preach creationism to me while we were in the middle of a lake on a canoe. I argued for a little bit then when I decided it was pointless, I dove out of the canoe, swam to shore and drove home. We grew apart pretty rapidly after this because he was becoming more rabidly christian and I was becoming more rabidly NOT christian. I remember him and his sister getting really angry with me because I refused to participate when they were protesting a local Marilyn Manson concert. In hindsight, I should have gone to the concert and bought a tshirt.

It's too bad. My opinions on this matter are definitely biased. I didn't have any problem with Christians until a whole bunch of them started telling me that I'm bad and that my beliefs are wrong and that I need to go to church more or I'm going to hell. That pissed me off. Before that I was just uncomfortable with them because church really creeped me out when I was a child.

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Holy crap! It tastes like smoked sausage and gets you drunk at the SAME TIME!

It's amazing how much your thought processes and emotions and such can change based on things like what/how much you have eaten, how well rested you are, how much exercise you've had lately, etc. I don't know if most people are as drastically effected by these things as I am, but I'm assuming that they are.

Minor/short-term example: Monday night I didn't eat dinner, smoked about 6 cigarettes(that is a lot of cigarettes for me because I'm not normally a smoker), drank probably 4 or 5 glasses of scotch (probably around 8-10 oz. i'd guess), went to bed late and during the approximately 5 hours I was in bed I woke up twice .. once for at 20 minutes because of a phone call.
Obviously I was not going to be at the top of my game the next day. But I'm amazed that it so drastically affected such a wide range of emotions. I felt cranky, needy, unconfident, lazy and self conscious. Some relationships seemed to matter more to me and some seemed not to matter at all, mostly for pretty arbitrary reasons. The most overwhelming and frustrating problem for the day was that I felt like I was searching for something that I could not find and I was very distraught about it.
So last night I drank a glass of scotch and ate 3 hot dogs then went to bed at about 11. I got about 7 hours of sleep. That leads us to today...

I feel fucking fantastic. Not for any real reason that I can think of. I just feel more awake and alert, I feel motivated, i'm in a good mood, I feel confident, I feel llike I look good, etc.
Crazy chemicals and their reactions with my brain.

In other news, lately I've been really wanting a lot of things that I can't have. It's sad and frustrating. I could probably get some of these things if I was willing to throw away all the things I've currently got going in my life, pack up and go on an adventure to try to capture my dreams. It wouldn't be the 'smart' thing to do, but I like doing stupid things. Who knows? You only live once, right? I never really felt like I would be satisfied with a conventional sort of lifestyle. Whenever things in my life start to feel settled and I get into a routine, I find myself longing for a major upheaval. I've always sort of been a loner anyway. A lot of the time I think I want a bunch of close friends that I do everything with all the time, but I dont' know if I really do. I never really had a 'best' friend, and I definitely don't have one now. I'm pretty sure there's nobody out there who really knows me very well, which is sort of unfortunate. I feel like there should be at least one person who does. But I think my personality makes it pretty tough for that to happen. I seem to have a tendency to push people away when they start to close. And I'm really good at alienating people, burning bridges and severing ties to people. What I'm not good at is meeting people. Especially not the right people. I wonder if I'll ever be satisfied with anything. Hm, lost my train of thought but that was already a pretty good amount of rambling.

Also I wonder if this new obsession with being 'Green' is going to start wars in the future. To me it seems like one of those things that could grow huge and spin wildly out of control... it causes people to worry, obsess. Stirs up heated debates, instills a sense of self-righteousness in people. Yeah. You'll all remember this post during the great 'Green' War of 2035.

Lately, every time i look in the mirror I wonder what I would look like with a completely shaved head. This concerns me because there is a really high possibility that I will actually shave it in a moment of compulsion or intoxication. Might be a really bad move.